It’s really hard for me to think of past mistakes or transgressions as regrets. I have been through a lot in my life and not all of them are the smartest decisions but I can’t say that I regret all of them. Of course in those “freedom” years there are some people and decisions that I would prefer to not have happened and I will never mention them here, but for the most part I believe every person and situation, was put in my path to lead me right where I am today. Even though I made some "not smart" decisions with past people I don’t doubt one bit that those relationships shaped the person I am today. If you know me and my past you know I have traveled a long broken road and I can’t say that I regret that because it lead me right here, and I love it here. God certainly protected me along the way and I know it was all a part of His plan, even when I veered off the road on my own, He was looking at the map and leading me to bigger and better things.
It’s all about perspective- for example
- Dated Brad for 6 years, he smothered me and didn’t want me to have friends,
- I rebelled and joined sorority (insert long Brad story here)
- Through Gamma Phi I met Scott,
- Dated Scott who introduced me to Tyler after college,
- Dated Tyler who introduced me to his little sister Tammy who was in high school,
- Tammy encouraged me to sub at her high school WCHS,
- WCHS offered me a full time position teaching the following year,
- Teaching fulltime I had Missy as a student,
- Missy introduced me to her mom Betty,
- When I decided to leave teaching (with no plans on where I was going or what I was gonna do) Missy told her mom,
- Betty approached me one day and asked if I would like to come work for her, I said “what’s the job” she said “what can you do?”
Hired! And 4 years later I have an amazing job, great benefits and I get to bring Tay to work with me every day!
Even though Brad was abusive and Scott was 3 years of fighting, and those relationships ended with lots of heartache, I still think if not for them I would not be here today.
I have tons of little transitions in my life where it hurt a lot while it was happening but now that I look back I can see God’s handy work! I believe every decision –good, bad, or ugly – has made me the woman, wife, mother, daughter and friend I am today, how could I ever think of them as regrets?