I keep trying to lose weight... but it keeps finding me!

I know my baby loves me the way that I am, it’s just time for me to start doing that too.  In August 2008 I started with Weight Watchers to lose 30 lbs before my 30^th birthday and before we started our family.  I wanted to look great at my birthday and have that weight off so I had some room for pregnancy weight.  Well by December 19, 2008 I was down 32 lbs, I was so happy and had a wonderful birthday!  Enter in 2009: aka a crappy year.  I wanted to lose another 20 lbs but Gus’ employers started playing games with finances and ethical business practices and WW went out the window.  I knew I needed to save that $40 a month and I thought I can do the rest on my own. 

February- husband’s job taking a tank: stress weight starts to pile on 5 lbs

March- a good friends divorce: Holly gains 5 lbs in support with many evenings of wine and food to get her thru the nights she didn’t have her kids.

July- a pregnancy: Holly gains 5 lbs with excitement and joy for the time to come. 

September- the miscarriage depression: 10 lbs with excuse after excuse, well I can’t diet if I get pregnant this month, o not pregnant, let’s go out, now I can’t diet this month…not pregnant, let’s go out and so on and so on for the last 5 months.

25 lbs-OUCH 

I cannot believe 2009 flew by as fast as it did and I let that 25 lbs get away from me.  And it was going to continue until last week when I headed back to WW.  No more excuses, no more next week, no more I’m tired, no more.  I am done with this yo-yo; I am putting it out there now: the only reason for me to gain ANY weight is for a baby and that’s it.  I know I need to be healthy, I know I need to get this unnecessary weight off, and I know I can do it!  I am excited to start again and feel like I have control over something in my body these days.  One of the ways to make our goal permanent is to vocalize it and since this is my private place to randomly spout what I want I needed to put it out there.  I have to make my goal obtainable otherwise I will fail but my goal also needs to be realistic to my life.  I would like to say I am going to lose 40 lbs by June which is entirely possible but I need to be more specific to my needs too.  I am hoping one day soon I can stop dieting because I need that extra 100- 300 calories a day for 9 months, and I don’t know when that is going to happen.

So my goals are small:

1.  I am going to lose 10 lbs by Valentine’s day (well the 17^th)

2.  I am going to work out at least 4 days a week

3.  I am going to all my Wednesday meetings to weigh in, I need the accountability.

After the morning run!

To quote a great movie line :   

I’m gonna do it.